Last night I ended up my couch crying and in my feelings. I was in the midst of a text conversation that was going left...real fast. I didn’t know what had set me off but I told this guy that my expectations for us were low and whatever we had going on wouldn’t amount to much of anything. He didn’t say much but he didn’t try to argue against my point.
I was upset so I sent the screenshots to a friend with much sounder judgment than my own. She responded and she dragged me, she asked me why was I pushing him away and why was I asking in such a self-sabotaging manner. I sat there and thought about it and went back through the text conversation I had turned an ant hill into Mt. Everest which an hour’s time span. And what makes the situation that much sadder was I had no idea why I had lashed out at him other than the fact he wasn’t saying what I wanted or felt I needed to hear at that moment.